| Death |
[Jan. 27th, 2009|08:34 am] |
Cancers a bitch.
Its hard to see families struggle so much with the passing or soon to be passing of a loved one.
I try to take the most positive approach to death that i can think of. Im not sure of the entire heaven and hell concept or the reincarnation concept (but it would be cool to come back as a super cute and loved kitten) but i like to go with what i know is true.
Our bodies are mere crude vessels that carry energy. a engine if you would. One we die our body is lost yet our energy carries on in various shapes and forms. Energy is never lost or destroyed. Just transferred.
If you think of death in this way, then, i guess you would live forever. But.. who knows. Maybe theres just a dark abyss that awaits us if anything does at all.
Its the bonds and ties that you make during your life that are the real things that matter. Long after you are gone those ties remain with your loved ones or anyone else you touched. I think... knowing that. I could be happy in death.
I know of one three truths in this life. We are born, we will die, and that life is anything but fair. |
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| Damn Cats |
[Sep. 22nd, 2008|03:19 am] |
So,
When i moved to madison, i got two kitties. They are great. Well behaved. Love um.
Moved home, got a house..... happen to get two new kittens (long story they were going to be put down, they were way way malnurished, sick, etc) so i took them and got them healthy and now they are part of the family. I feel crazy cause i have 4 fucking cats but... i have a decent sized house so its not like your stepping all over cats
Anyways, one of them is pissing everywhere. Its really starting to get me mad. The two new ones wernt neutered yet so i figured that was it (He peed on my bed....while i was in it.... and on my foot) so i got hit shit cut off and two weeks later.. hes pissing on shit still.
Their litter gets cleaned everyday, they got enough litter boxes so i dont think thats it. He walks right over to a pillow i lay on all the time and just pisses on it. Wtf.
I guess ill take him to get checked for a bladder infection but holy shit im about to loose it with this cat.
I dont have the patience for this shit and i feel bad because... i dont want to get rid of him but.. not sure how much more im going to be willing or able to take this bullshit.
anyone got any ideas? |
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| Hatreds not so bad when you think about it |
[Jul. 7th, 2008|05:13 pm] |
Sure..... its "negative" but i mean really, negative towards what?
Everything is negative towards something, i suppise its ones view to determine what side detriments the other and where it falls across that magical line or right and wrong.
Personaly, i find hatred to be a fairly motivative tool. Think about it "I hate being overweight" so the person then tried to work out to rid themself of the weight and gain the desired body shape/image. Its not to bad
I hate lots of things. Like peas. I fucking hate peas. If i could id fight them. |
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| its funy how things change but always seem the same |
[Jun. 17th, 2008|01:43 pm] |
| [ | Current Location |
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| | the cure | ] |
As I sit in my car dreading this multicast routing class im about to teach to a client I wonderedif ill always feel this way.
I like my job but its so stressful and time consuming. nothings the same. always learning and playing catch up. I wonder if ill ever truly feel confident that im on top of my game.
I bought a house. moving in this saturday. im excited but ... with me.. it never seems to last.
iv come to the conclusion that you will never be complete. never be satisfied. to be complete is to stop learning and stip changing and to do that is to die.
I like obsticles. they hinder my path to wherever im going. but at least they make it interesting. |
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| /sigh |
[May. 15th, 2008|04:25 pm] |
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The Upper Peninsula can suck it. In Sault St Marie at the Soo Locks on the army base. Working 14-18hr days all week = the gay |
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| and how! |
[May. 8th, 2008|07:59 am] |
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Just bought my 1st house. Hurray for being an adult! |
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| work work work all day long work work work as i sing a song |
[Mar. 18th, 2008|11:04 pm] |
well, now that i spent a year and a half doing route/switch and voip work i am starting to now getting deeper into security. Its cool. complex but.. its good stuff.
I might be heading to Toronto or Montreal early next month on business and that could be cool. I can meet friends up in Toronto but in Montreal ill be by myself. Maybe a decent opportunity to do some site seeing. I wiki'd it and it looks like theres some cool architectural sites to see. could be good times.
Other than that its been the same old shit. working long days and then coming home and doing more stuff for work either be it lab work, research for a client, or night cutovers.
How about you? |
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| Furniture.... |
[Jan. 30th, 2008|07:35 am] |
Anyone want a sectional sofa? Its a lil old..... and green... but its in good condish!
Oh! it has a coffee table thats shaped like a bear and a side table shaped like a tree!! you can have them!! free!
just... come and get them the fuck out of my house....
(i got new furniture, yay me)
Works going ok, kinda hectic. Im all over the fucking place these days. Doing work in Ann Arbor a lot as of late and also in Auburn Hills. Today however im heading to detroit on a huge MARS deployment and then thurs/fri im in Adrian(??) Mi for a voice project.. .apparently that shits liek 2.5hrs away... /sigh
but.. Im extending an open hangout request/invitation. Theres some ppl i wanna see since i moved back and havnt had a chance to yet. If youd like to hang out let me know |
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[Dec. 21st, 2007|08:57 am] |
| [ | mood |
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Upon my return to Michigan, i realized that it wasnt what i thought it would be. Primarily because i had been idealizing everything in my head for so long about home because i had been removed from it for such a period of time.
Im not a kid anymore, but i remember everything like it was in my childhood. The way the neighborhood looked, the way my family and friends looked and acted.
It was kind of sad actually. Dont get me wrong. Im happy to be home and i look forward to being back with my friends and family. Its just hard to accept that so much has seemingly changed in such a relatively short period of it. Or.. is it that, nothing has changed but me. |
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| December 17th |
[Oct. 24th, 2007|10:09 am] |
December 17th is my Offical Start Date in the CDW/Berbee Office in Detroit.
I will be starting my move on December 4th (loading trucks and whatnot) and should arrive in Michigan around the 7th.
/wave goodbye Madison |
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| Closer to Home |
[Sep. 28th, 2007|11:00 am] |
I have my meeting with regional this coming Tuesday. Hurray
If all goes well as i expect it to ill be moving back very soon.
now.. if i could just find a sublet for this fucking loft.
anyone moving to madison? lol |
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| Eventful Week |
[Sep. 13th, 2007|08:44 pm] |
This week has been nuts.
Last Friday Beth had immediate surgery to remove her appendix and iv been taking care of her since.
Today i passed my final exam for the ccvp. I am now officaly CCNA, CCNP, and CCVP certified. I am now eligible to move back home. So hopefully in October ill be back in Michigan. |
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| All things come to an end |
[Sep. 5th, 2007|09:44 am] |
My time in Madison is slowly coming to its end. I should really only have a few more pages before i close this chapter of my life. However, i fear that this chapter has become redundant. Sure, the plot line thickened with the introduction of a few new elements, but has it grasped its readers attention?
This chapter had had a very fleeing feeling. Nothing was set in stone, nothing drastically changed. However, it did produce a constant feeling of anticipation. Oh well, you never know how its going to pan out until you read those last few words.
"Note to self, no one cares, your voice is average." |
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| Ninjas |
[Aug. 23rd, 2007|10:05 am] |
Hi
Still in Madison, one test left until I finish my CCVP. Hopefully that will be in a week or two. I need to talk to my boss and figure out EXACTLY when i am moving.... but he keeps dodging me. Lame.
Other than that, things are ok, kinda the same. My mom said she would sell the house to me the only issue is getting a down payment for the fucking loan...
I havnt saved ANY money because i HAD to buy a new car and iv had a lot of medical bills this year and since i have B on my insurance but we arnt married i get raped... (you wouldn't believe how much they charge me just to have her on it a month)
fuck you down payment, fuck you in your stupid ass.
Cause.. when i move back i dunno where im gonna live and i don't wanna sign a fucking yr lease... ill save no money that way. grr. arg. gay. |
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| Thanks boss... |
[Jul. 31st, 2007|09:45 am] |
So.... I had planned a vacation which is now canceled.
thanks boss..
I tell him im going on vacation and he approves it, asks when ill be getting back and then assigns me a project for the exact date that i return. I was like.. are you fucking kidding me?
I need to put together a 2 hour presentation for ppl at work.. so.. yeah.. im not going to go on vacation and have that hang over my head so im just fucking canceling it.
I have a test tomorrow which i must pass. After that.. i figure ill get my last one out of the way. If i took a vacation it would take me like 2 weeks to get back into the swing of things like it did this time. Plus, i didn't have anywhere really to stay, no one ot watch my cats, and all my friends will be at work for most of the day... so.. wtf would i do with myself.
I'm moving back for sure in October and possibly earlier so i figure i just get all my shit taken care of. I might come home for a weekend or something before i move tho.
sorry to disappoint all of you but im sad too =[
You can always come to madison tho! |
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| Sigh |
[Jul. 26th, 2007|08:57 am] |
Well... I turned 24 a few weeks ago (July 14th) and well.. it was just another day to be hones.t Nothing spectacular. I miss my friends and family.
Im comming home for a short vacation. Ill be leaving here the 12th or 11th and will be in MI for that entire week.
Durring this time i would like to
1) See people i havnt got to see in a while
2) Look for houses
3) ..............dunno
some list hey lol. |
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| shwwaaaaaa? |
[Jul. 12th, 2007|11:22 am] |
FINALLY! Tomorrow is my last day on this stupid fucking project!!
Ill be home for the first time in 4.5 months! Hurray!
Also, I think ill buy a house when I move to Michigan.
The time spent with Nick and Phil last weekend was great. I miss those silly bastards. |
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| Ohio |
[Jun. 26th, 2007|05:23 pm] |
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This entire state is tiny towns strung together by 45min of highway. Its really strange to me. Theres also a fair amount of attractive chicks here with NO decent looking guys. Its fucking weird. If i were single.... id be batting like 1500000000 |
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